The Month of March…
March 19, 2008
… is so far the worst month I had this year.
First, there was a certain family problem which I really did need to worry about. And so far, things aren’t looking as good. Who knows, maybe I might not be able to go college after all, as much as I want to. If I did, I can’t say how bright my family future is, especially for brother. I don’t know, that guy is still small, after all.
Second, are my exam results. It’s, umm, in a way, okay. My previous exam results are better, in my opinion. 6As, 4Bs, and 1 C, if I recall. Don’t know, maybe I should push harder in college… that is, if I am going to college.
Thirdly, are friend problems. The names would not be said, but there are two situation.
The first situation is about a good friend of mine, and me. It was another day, when me and him were just talking to each other, and… I don’t know, I did something that he didn’t like. Then he got angry and told me that he doesn’t like my behavior. Of course, this made me preety heartbroken, and… well, I don’t want to disturb him anymore.
The second situation involves two people and me. We were at a group chat a few days ago, and I made this horrible joke one time, and the both of them were fighting each other. Of course, the people who were good friends with these two people were extremely worried as well, including me. But wow, I couldn’t shake the feeling off that I am responsible for this entire thing. Until now, both of them don’t want to talk to each other.
Out of the three things above, the third problem troubles me the most. Although they said it was not my fault, that is what troubles me even more. I didn’t really get some sleep yesterday too, and periods are a pain. =.=
And currently, I am working on the second ‘Tales of SP’ fic, which is currently in halt, since I could not think right now, as I am too sad to think of anything. There are times when I wish I could do something, and yet, I couldn’t. I wished for a dream came true, but it didn’t.
… Why do I have a feeling something bad would happen to my future later on?……
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Deline | March 19, 2008 at 7:22 am
Sorry Mei… Really, it’s not your fault. I have no words of exact comfort but I want to say sorry for having to give you such a feeling. I was hurt by that joke yet it wasn’t even understood and it was just pressed on so I rather not talk at all. But really, you should know me, I easily forgive people, so if I receive a proper apology I’d be happy again…
I’m sorry I have nothing too comforting to say right now but I want to let you know that no matter what I’ll always be there for you and my other friends as well. It’s okay I get hurt but I can never really hate anyone. I just wanted to be understood, that’s all… And what limits should be.
Don’t say something like that, the future is still long. I know that someone as hardworking and a beautiful heart like you can live a long and happy live. I want to remind you we’re always here for you, Mei.
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Nghi L~om | March 19, 2008 at 7:24 am
You really do have a heavy load… and you even took some that doesn’t even belong to you. But yeah… I do suppose those are very heavy subjects…
*guilt* =_=;;
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chibileon | March 19, 2008 at 7:35 am
I know… but there is this small feeling of guilt inside me about this problem. Really, I want to make you two together again, but I don’t know, today I just learned to mind my own business sometimes.
And it’s alright, dear. I would be really happy if you are happy as well. I love you, as well as my other friends and people as well. And dear, it’s not okay if you get hurt, because I will get worried, lol.
… Right, thanks. Although that feeling is still there. I guess I just have to wait and believe. owo;
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chibileon | March 19, 2008 at 7:36 am
And Nghi, dear, don’t be guilty. ._.; I’ll be guilty too if you are as well.
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choo23 | March 19, 2008 at 12:35 pm
Your results are quite good though.
But hey! everyone in the world makes mistakes, even i do. We learn from our mistakes to move on with life so that we won’t make the same mistakes in the future. XD
So cheer up yoh! Be strong!
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chibileon | March 19, 2008 at 1:51 pm
Lol, my previous results are better. XD
Yeah, I know… But sometimes I get the feeling that it’s still my fault, really. I don’t know why but… it’s still there.
And thanks, I’ll try. =D;